Here is the audio from my 'Depression Talks YouTube Channel' video called, "None Of This Matters." I recorded and shared this video openly on my YouTube Channel, but I understand that there is a different audience here on this podcast. Thank you. Thank you so much for supporting me through all of this time. This has been a journey that has almost made me quit on Depression Talks and my own life so many times. But DT Nation, I am still here, still breathing, and I know I'm not alone in this crazy thing called life. Let's keep fighting and pushing forward one day, one second, one moment at a time! This wasn't an easy moment for me, but I made it through. If you would like to get more connected with me and my mission to change the mental health stigma, you can visit DepressionTalks.org
Many people share reasons to be alive or reasons to stay alive, and the majority of the time I would say... their advice may actually make things worse. In this episode, I share what I believe are 'healthy' reasons to want to stay alive. I believe they are healthy because they are all internal reasons (instead of most advice being external reasons from the individual who is feeling depressed). This mental fight to stay alive is not always easy, but it's still a fight. That means we can't give up. Winning is breathing to me. As long as we're breathing, we're still pushing forward with a purpose. Let's continue to push forward. We got this DT Nation.
I'm exhausted. I just want to sleep right now. I keep on fighting this thing called "life", and it's annoying me. Even so, I keep on fighting. I won't give up. I refuse to. Depression and anxiety are a part of my life. It takes hard work to continue to healthily manage my mental health all the time. I'm tired of thinking about and having negative thought loops that play over and over again in my mind. In this episode, I open up about what I'm currently experiencing mentally and emotionally. I hope that by opening up to you, you see that you are not alone when it comes to fighting depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. DT Nation, let's keep on fighting and staying strong. We got this.
I really did my best in this episode to try and explain complex thoughts I had to work through during my recent emotional breakdown. These weren't "normal tears" similar to other depressive episodes I've had in the past. This one hurt. There were no signs of sadness on my face. Just a stern and intense stare off into space while tears kept pouring out.
If you have been a listener to this podcast, you know that when I have a mental breakthrough, I share that experience with you here. We are in this fight together when it comes to battling depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. I promise you that you are not alone. If you are currently struggling with taking physical action in something, I hope that listening to this episode shifts your perspective into a positive for your health and growth. You got this. (Visit DepressionTalks.org for more info).
I just uploaded this video to my YouTube channel "Depression Talks" titled "I don't like talking about this...". It's hard for me to talk during moments like this. I feel numb, empty, and trapped... like I'm in a dense fog not knowing my way out. I hope my "letting it out" helps you in some way. I don't know how, but I just hope it does. Depression and anxiety are real, and I'm not afraid to tell the world that.
My short answer, nothing. There is nothing wrong with being weird, awkward, or different. I didn't always feel this way. I actually struggled the majority of my life feeling like I was not good enough because I was weird. Every time I didn't fit in and was made fun of for being myself, my confidence, self-esteem, and mentality lowered dramatically. It felt impossible to love the person I looked at in the mirror.
Now, I embrace my weirdness! I love how different I am from others. I don't mind being called weird or different because that makes me unique in my own way. I have no desire to be like anyone else. I'd rather be myself. In life, that's all I can be. Me.
If you are someone that feels like an outcast, you are not alone. Embrace what makes you different. Embrace being "weird". You are more than enough already being actual who you are.
What is your definition of happiness? How would you choose to define it? In this episode, I share my thoughts and perspective on the word 'happiness', and how to feel it a little more every day. If you are someone that wants to increase your amount of daily "happy minutes" and hear a deeper insight into the feeling of happiness, this episode is for you. Keep on taking action towards better understanding your own thoughts and emotions (one of my suggestions is to set a time for 5 minutes and journal at least once a day). If you don't know where to begin, start by writing down your own definition of happiness. I'm rooting for you DT Nation! You are not alone.
The question, "Why should I keep going in life?", comes to my mind on a daily basis. I do literally mean 'daily'. No matter how far I go in success, relationships, finances, or even personal development, this question still pops up in my head every single day. It wasn't until recently I learned that I'm completely okay with that. In this episode, I do my best to motivate you, and myself, to keep going. To not give up on ourselves and life. I am feeling depressed right now and a little hopeless, but I have given up on my life before, and I refuse to let that be an option! We must keep pushing forward. I hope you find this episode helpful, especially if you are feeling alone and depressed right now. You are not alone. I'm rooting for you to get through this. You got this.
There is still such a huge stigma behind a man crying or being "too emotional". This leads the majority of men to not knowing how to understand their own emotions or the emotions of the people around them. As an emotional and empathetic man, I find it sad to see other men being called "weak" or "too feminine" for expressing how they feel. I know I may be seen as weak or unorthodox for speaking upon this unpopular opinion, but I stand by it firmly. As a human being, you are allowed to express ALL emotions there are. Simple as that. If you want to join a group that openly talks about mental health, self-esteem, and even sadness without the emotional social-norms, join the private DT Nation Facebook group. Go to Facebook and type in, "DT Nation" to find the group. You are not alone.
The pressure to feel like you have to be happy in life is real. In short words, you don't always have to feel happy in every single moment and second. There are times where we will feel down. That's okay. But, it's during those moments you have to dig deep and the real work begins. Do you journal when you're feeling low? Or go for a walk? These small changes add up and make a big difference over time. I really open up in this episode, and I hope that it shows you that you are not alone when it comes to this thing called life. We got this! If you would like to join the private DT Nation Facebook group and share some of your mental breakthroughs, art, music, or tips, go to Facebook and type in "DT Nation". Keep pushing forward!